I am continuing to be amazed at how deeply these so-called little exercises that we do go. Two collided this week – “giving myself permission to be happy”, and “what am I pretending not to know?”. I had been feeling depressed for a week or more – which is uncommon for me. I attributed it to external circumstances, but really, I usually bounce back pretty well. The other night I sat down before I went to bed with the permission thing and the question. “I give myself permission to be happy”, and then “what am I pretending not to know”. What came up is “I don’t have permission to be happy when so many people are suffering/have suffered”. Blindsided with this one! I went in, found the vow I made way-back-when to take on others’ suffering, and released it. The next morning I woke up singing, the depression gone like a morning mist. Happiness has to be unconditional, and, it benefits everyone. Moving on. What an adventure!